Beta HCG : 70 U/L

Sample Collected : 15/9/11

Quantitative H.C.G  - 70 U/L
*Consistent with pregnancy*

Yay? Or not?

Roughly knowing the 'conception' date puts me about 22 days or roughly 3 weeks gestation on 15/09/11 and reference range for 2-3 weeks 100-1,000.

Oh boy, this is not looking good.

Again?

Again?
I'm not sure what's going on with me.
I've been getting faint lines on UPT since 31-Aug-2011, today is 19-September-2011!!!

Anyway, last Wednesday, I was at the hospital for my routine blood test. I hoped to get pass the nurse to see the doctor. As expected, nurse did an UPT and it was negative.... so, no see doctor.
I hate hospital UPT, the last I had, first reported negative, then faint positive even though my beta HCG was at 180 something... I HATE HOSPITAL UPT!

%Q###$^#$^^@^%%#

Other than feeling my boobs getting bigger (hehehe ...), not much of pregnancy symptoms.
Boobs still, it could be that they are bigger because I'm now much fatter.

Also, I noticed light spotting. Nothing needing a pad ... just 'spots'.

I really don't know la ...
After two short-lived joy previously, I am trying very hard not to be hopeful ...
I've done a beta HCG test at a private clinic last Thursday, supposedly getting my result today but doc hasn't called!!! $#%@#$%#^$%^$%$%@

The lines could also be coming from leftover HCG still floating in my system after my miscarriage....
BUT, I seriously remembered taking one or two UPT after 16/8 ultrasound (doc couldn't find anything then and it was deemed 'complete miscarriage') strips were stark white, only one line!

Or is it something else? Oooooooo Twilight zone...

So, I don't know la ...

Tooth / Gum ??? Ache

Woke up at 12 something midnight as my tooth / gum was aching.
I took one big Panadol Actifast.... didn't work...
Gargled / Swirled around with Listerine ... didn't work....
Flossed ... didn't work ...

Then I remembered, 'warm salt water'!!
Swirl with warm salt water!

Did the trick - back on bed at 3.00 am.

Trying to be very gentle with 'tooth / gum' today.

Stone Cold

A horrible day.

Today confirms my greatest fear, I miscarried again.

Both abdominal and internal scan finds no sac.

Doctor said I must have passed it out without knowing.

I stoned as I absorbed the news.

I couldn't speak for I'll burst in river of tears.

Hopes dashed.

Now, I am only waiting for the 'full blow' of bleeding, which is starting like now...

Abdomen cramps on and off.

Bye bye 'Blob'

Pregnant or Not? Not Conclusive.

Although I've been confirmed 'pregnant' by a private Women's Health Clinic.
I've yet to hear a 'Yes, you are pregnant' from any of my main doctors in the hospital.

Today, my second UPT test came back weakly positive after TWO WEEKS!!
First one was faint positive.
So kidney doc said "Not Conclusive"

I am bleeding / spotting still since last Monday.
I hate to admit it but overall, it doesn't look good.
To add to it, my beta HCG taken on 3/8/11 was only 182.7.
Considered low as I (think), I was about 4w + 2 or 3 day.

I keep reminding myself, worry won't do any good.
But, how can I not worry?

Passing of 2 Kim ....

My 2 Kim passed away on Friday. She was 66.

Definition of 2 Kim, Wife to my Mom's younger brother, 'second' son of the family - thus the '2' Kim, in short, an 'Aunt'. I remember learning to memorise title of each and every aunties / uncles, now that I've grown-up I realise all these numerical + titles make so much sense! We, Chinese, very clever one, indeed!

Imagine instead of Auntie Julie, we say 2 Kim, immediately the whole 'family tree' comes into the picture. No need to explain how A and B are related. In short, keeps nosy strangers very happy .. :)

Anyway, back to my 2 Kim.
Am I close to her?
I don't know. I feel close to her with her SMS'es'.
(She was very good at texting and her use of SMS abbreviation puts mine to shame! Honestly!)
When I was having my chicken pox, she sent me text message on 'what to do or not to do'. I like her SMS'es', they were lovely and sweet.
However when in person, I do not even know how to start a conversation. I tried then I gave up. I just let it be, thinking that there will be 'one day' .  My only regret, I should have tried harder.

Again, Am I close to her?
Considering that I imagined in my mind SMS'ing' her when my pregnancy pass its first trimester ..
I guess, we are 'sort-of-close' .. through data frequency ...

Rest well 2 Kim.

Bleeding, Abdominal Cramp ...

Yesterday was a crappy day.

I woke up with light bleeding accompanied by abdominal cramps, ON and OFF. I felt like peeing all the time.

I threw a big tantrum at my hubby when he got home from work. I wanted KFC on the instant and started hitting him with a pillow, several times. My bad.

At 1.10 am the cramps continued and has gotten worse. My hubby took me to the A&E. Fortunately it wasn't a long wait this time. The nice doctor did a scan and we saw our little 'bean' on the screen. Not very clear as 'bean' is still very small. I couldn't make anything out of it, until the doctor pointed out 'bean's head and body.

I've been given Tramadol to help with the pain and Potassium Citrate (to clear my urine?).

I've also be referred to the O&G for assessment next Tuesday. I am scared.

At the moment, not so much bleeding, abdomen feels sore from yesterday's cramping.

I need to pray.